Confuse

Hey there ,its been awhile since i update my blog .
Well lets see after 8 & 9 august outing nothing much happened .
I currently now confuse and I don't know what I am confuse about .
Recently I can't control myself example:all out of sudden I felt angry if not sad .
I dunnoe what is happening to me .
Even though people always say that I am happy go lucky but then they will be shocked if they knew bout my inside .
A lot of sadness .
Sometime people get irritated by me cause I keep making jokes and never being serious .
Wanna know why I behaving like that ?
I'll tell you its because that I making jokes not to attract people attention ,not to being fool to myself it just that I am covering my sadness that I carry inside my heart .
I really hope they would understand me .
You see I never been the type to say out my problem to others .
But here at 113 I've change and I begin to say out my problem to Kai & Phy .
Thanks to them the hurt in myself begin to fade away .
I guess its true that it feel good to tell others your problem than just kept to yourself .
Yeah its true .
Even though I still feeling hurt but at least manage to escape from my past torture .
Thanks to god and also 113 peeps without them who am I .
I may not have a perfect family and I may not have a perfect life but when I have no where to go or having problem I know where to go to ,113 is the place .
Okay guys its time for me to go .
C ya when I c ya .
Takecare partner .